I'm Watching From Above
Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2012 1:12 am
A couple of days ago, we discovered that a friend of ours was found dead after going missing just before Christmas. He had committed suicide after many years of depression following the death of his son.
Whenever people speak of suicide, there are many who cannot understand how a person can be so selfish, and put their family and friends through such pain. My belief is that, unless we have walked in their shoes, we should not judge them for their actions.
Back in 2010, my husbands niece lost her husband to suicide after a long battle with Bipolar disease, and I wrote the following poem after hearing her father, and a couple of other family members expressing those same thoughts - how could he do that???
I would like to think that the words may encourage others to try to understand a little why a person does what they do, even if we don't believe we would ever do it ourselves.
My friend rang me tonight after spending considerable time looking on the internet for words to go on a card for his funeral, that said what she wanted to say. She then received my email that I had sent with the poem in it, and has asked to use that. I feel honoured that she wishes to use my words at such a sad occasion for them, but also hope that they will bring some comfort to anyone who has gone through the pain of losing a loved one to suicide.
I’m Watching From Above
© Irene Conner 18/03/10
Please judge me not for what I’ve done,
nor think me not a man
for I have fought a long, hard fight
in ev’ry way I can.
My heart is now too weary and
the path ahead too steep,
but know that, tho’ I’ve left your world,
I hold you when you weep.
You’ve been beside me all the way;
you’ve walked my highs and lows;
You’ve carried me within your love
in ways nobody knows.
I’ve fought the demons in my mind –
they will not lay to rest
but I have shared myself with you
in ways you all know best.
Remember not the troubled times
that we now leave behind.
It’s in the happy times we shared
my spirit you will find.
Please feel again my arms wrapped ‘round
enfolding you with love
and know that, in another form
I’m watching from above.
Rest in Peace Kevin - and all those who could see no light at the end of the tunnel. May you find the peace that you seek.
Whenever people speak of suicide, there are many who cannot understand how a person can be so selfish, and put their family and friends through such pain. My belief is that, unless we have walked in their shoes, we should not judge them for their actions.
Back in 2010, my husbands niece lost her husband to suicide after a long battle with Bipolar disease, and I wrote the following poem after hearing her father, and a couple of other family members expressing those same thoughts - how could he do that???
I would like to think that the words may encourage others to try to understand a little why a person does what they do, even if we don't believe we would ever do it ourselves.
My friend rang me tonight after spending considerable time looking on the internet for words to go on a card for his funeral, that said what she wanted to say. She then received my email that I had sent with the poem in it, and has asked to use that. I feel honoured that she wishes to use my words at such a sad occasion for them, but also hope that they will bring some comfort to anyone who has gone through the pain of losing a loved one to suicide.
I’m Watching From Above
© Irene Conner 18/03/10
Please judge me not for what I’ve done,
nor think me not a man
for I have fought a long, hard fight
in ev’ry way I can.
My heart is now too weary and
the path ahead too steep,
but know that, tho’ I’ve left your world,
I hold you when you weep.
You’ve been beside me all the way;
you’ve walked my highs and lows;
You’ve carried me within your love
in ways nobody knows.
I’ve fought the demons in my mind –
they will not lay to rest
but I have shared myself with you
in ways you all know best.
Remember not the troubled times
that we now leave behind.
It’s in the happy times we shared
my spirit you will find.
Please feel again my arms wrapped ‘round
enfolding you with love
and know that, in another form
I’m watching from above.
Rest in Peace Kevin - and all those who could see no light at the end of the tunnel. May you find the peace that you seek.